The reality of a disabled U.S. Marine

The reality of a disabled U.S. Marine
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
What is reality? I at 17 joined the USMC. I received three serious injuries while on active duty. Two separate injuries were receive during combat support missions. I did 31 months over seas. I was American Advisor on 8 convoys. I killed for you. I came back in 1974 to a world that I had no memory of. My first injury was a traumatic brain injury (TBI). My memory starts as a Marine overseas. A Veteran's Hospital Dr Holtz once asked me "what if you are a Gov. test to see how someone with no memory would react to different situations"? The more learning that I do the more I wish that I never came back. Imagine living in a world where you met your parents and family when you returned at the age of 21. imagine coming back to a country where all road signs are in the language you speak. Imagine streets filled with round eyed girls. Imagine living where the structured environment of the Marine Corps no longer exists. I started volunteering when I first returned because it was a way for me to repay those that never came back. Volunteering became a learning tool for me to understand by listening to others with a life time of knowledge. I purposely have violated no laws since I returned in 74 because that would be to violate our Constitution. This is the document that I believed others were dying for around me. I killed others in the line of duty because a naive young Marine believe the words others spoke of a land where the people have equal rights.
I have wanted to die from a short time after I returned. I have not because the tomorrow is a day I may be able to help others. The NH judges and government have taken tomorrow away. NH judges and government officials violate the Constitution at their will and the news refuses to print the truth. These leaders fail to realize they can not stop me. I may die, but I still win. My head and body pains will be gone and I will no longer see my first kill every day.
NH has stopped my VA medical, taken my freedom, and much more because I stopped to volunteer help to a Madbury NH family. The news media censors the truth. NH senators ignore my pleads for assistance. NH Congresswoman Shea-Porter has the VA try to commit me against my will. The President does not care about a disabled Marine. These trusted officials have violated our Constitution and no one cares. I at coffee this morning planed how to take my own life. That has become a common event for me. My plan to volunteer help a friend with a land scrape business does not seem to work. My pain increases each day but I wake up again and again. I hear many people say over the years life is to short. I believe it just will not end. I can remember being in the jungle and placing my bayonet in another human being, but I can not remember more important things. Am I a test and reality does not exist? How can a government stop my medical for a medical condition I received for You the United States of America?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi